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Intense Emotional Release Meditation
Posted by Luminakisharblaze on April 10, 2011 at 8:50pm in Meditation Group
Everyone has difficult memories. The ones that are hardest to resolve are
also the best ones for this meditation. Let’s take a walk through one of mine
for an example.
First of all, the specifics are never important because
they only solidify the memory. It is better to focus on how the situation made
you feel.
It was a night almost 22 years ago. I went to meet a friend at
the bowling alley one night. I was 20 years old. It was busy, so I had to park
on the side of the building in the last space before the back of the lot. The
bowling alley was backed up to a small field of tall grass. I had been inside
with my friend, and I realized I had left my cigarettes in the car. I went out
to get them and while I was unlocking my car, I was pulled behind the building
and raped.
When it was over, I went inside to the bathroom in complete
disbelief of what had just happened. In the town I was in, the police were
corrupt and already held prejudices against rape victims. It was still a time
where the victim was questioned as to what she did to deserve it. I had already
endured a childhood of rape and abuse, and I couldn’t bear to have to relive it
at the police station. I was still too fragile.
Standing in the bathroom
trying to gather myself so no one knew, I felt so angry. I was overcome by a
sense of utter betrayal by life and Divinity and everyone I knew. The more I
thought about it, the madder I got. What did I do to always end up in this
situation? What kind of horrible person must I be to bring this on? Then I just
thought, “Stuff it down. No one has to know. Just bury it with the
rest.”
I went to the bar and got a pitcher of beer, then I took the whole
memory and just drowned it in beer for that night. But things are never that
easy. I found out later I was pregnant. I realized very quickly that you can
never stuff it down, you can never bury it, you have to face these things sooner
or later.
So face them. See this situation for what it was. I was given a
son. Sure, he was not brought forth under the best of circumstances, but he is a
wonderful gift. Through the relationship he has with his brother, who is a
complete opposite, I have learned balance and how two opposites can co-exist. I
sit back now and look at the love between them and realize that out of one
horrific act of violence, a beautiful addition to this world was born.
He
told the world how he felt at age 5. He said, “Mom, if I told you a poem I made
up, would you write it down for me?” The poem is called “Love”
Love is
God’s power.
Love is God’s wisdom.
Love is how God does everything.
If
there were no love there would be no God.
But hate you never want to
do.
Cause hate is the devil’s way, it’s true.
If you ever do hate, you
will be God’s worst enemy.
Never hate. Always love.
So you never know
where you will find your grace. Sometimes it comes from the most unlikely
source. Sometimes you can only see it through another’s eyes. And while you have
read this, you have released some powerful emotion through this tale, and I have
left you with a sense of hope at the end.
Meditation is easy. You just
have to release. How you accomplish it should be as unique as you.